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Tuesday, April 27, 2010 ♥

After so many people had convinced me yet i still can't make up my mind ..

Why am i holding on to something when knowing it's impossible ..

I should had hated euu so much after what had happen but i dunno why i can't get myself to hate euu ...

The feeling really sucks so much , i m so tired of trying to make myself happy when i am not ..

How long will this thing go on ??

If i still can't get myself to be busy all the while , i will collapse anytime ..

What did euu really treat me as ??

Someone who can just be played with or someone that euu are making use of ..

The feeling i had for euu is more than i had expected ..

The fastest and foolish way to forget euu is to be fooled by euu ..

But i can't be sure whether i can really take such a damage coming from euu ..

I really hope that i can forget euu and not be so confusing now ..

Actually there's only one best way to solve what is going on now ..

But i am just being foolish to think that there might be hope around !!

What the hell am i really thinking ??

Knowing that i should be awake and face the reality but i still can't get myself to be awake ..

Knowing what's the fact yet i still lying to myself and not trying to believe things ..

listened to the sweet sound @ 4:07 PM

Thursday, April 22, 2010 ♥

Dunno what kind of reaction should i give about what euu sae .

The kind of feeling that euu give me is really dam weird .

Sometimes feeling happy yet angry .

I know it isn't right to like someone that i shouldn't .

How m i suppose to give up when the way euu treating me can't make me bear to give up .

Really confuse over what i should do and feel now .

I really wish to maintane this friendship but if things still continue like that i can't forget euu .

How should i really communicate with euu in a way that things wouldn't change

and my feeling will slowly being wash off ...

Why am i always stuck in things like this and still can't figure things out !

I really starts to feel that i m blind and hating myself for it .

aihz !

listened to the sweet sound @ 4:12 PM

Tuesday, April 20, 2010 ♥

Finally i got the courage to tell him !

And the result turns out to be suprising ...

I was happy yet felt guilty ...

Your answer really gave me quite a shock , it's really out of my expectation ...

No matter what , even if i tell euu ...

Euu said euu liked me but euu still love ur girlfriend alot ...

How m i suppose to face euu again if we meet up ...

Are euu really a guy not worthy being loved ...

Forgetting someone isn't easy and people around keep telling me to do so ...

Confessing might be a relieve but there's a weird feeling though ...

How should i overcome this weird feeling !!!

listened to the sweet sound @ 5:13 PM

Monday, April 19, 2010 ♥

Was hesistating since yesterday to tell him or not ...

Knowing the result that more then 80% will turn out bad and should i still sae ?

Not saying will just let things remain like how it is ...

Saying might cause the friendship to drift apart or can't even continue to be friends ...

The moment when slacking with euu is totally different though i dislike the topics ...

I also wish i can do things by following my heart but i have so many doubts and not enough courage to sae things out ...

Was thinking is there anyway to test the answer from euu when i tell euu ...

But nothing came to my mind and i m still hesistating !!!

Should i sae or shouldn't i ???

listened to the sweet sound @ 12:29 PM

Tuesday, April 13, 2010 ♥

When loving someone will just takes a moment ...

But forgetting someone might be a lifetime or taking years ...

And why am i repeating things when i know the result is impossible ...

Can't human never ever fall in love ?

I am just a idiotic person who tends to like someone easily ...

But i know what's the outcome gonna be ...

I might not know the meaning of love but i know whether i love someone or not ...

But whenever such suitation happens the outcome will just sucks ...

If i m to tell again , things will just end up to be either losing a friend or the friendship will drift apart ...

If i m not to tell , i just hate the kind of feeling that i have ...

There's so many examples already yet i am still repeating things ...

Though many people can't do this which is being more responsible in their words .

Knowing or not knowing what they said gonna affect a person ...

I am just a sensitive person who might just take words seriously and i hate for being who i am ...

listened to the sweet sound @ 6:20 PM

Monday, April 12, 2010 ♥

Some people tends to not have responsible in their words .

They might not know sometime what they say might affect a person feeling very much ! Freaking hate this kind of people having such attitute ...

There's always a person around me being two kind of people and i really hate it .

The way euu react and the way euu backmouth about others prove that euu will badmouth about me to the others too .

Losing trust in the people around me ... When i tends to trust a person , there's always something happening to make me lost trust or misunderstand about that person .

I believe in the words that people says , true friends isn't easy to find .

And euu dun have to have lots of true friends , a few is more den enough .

listened to the sweet sound @ 4:35 PM

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What a " kind " nuer i have that will help me update my blog and complains !
Love nuer to the max okaes !

Never ever will forget her even if we never meet out .
Miss her lots too , even the time we had together might be short but it will alwaes be memories in my life !

Friends and families are mend to cherish but there's alwaes exceptional .

But joanna lim will never be the exceptional xD

Cause she will alwaes be my beloved nuer !

listened to the sweet sound @ 4:25 PM

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